Today is the BIG day....

Today is the day I hit the BIG 4-0!!!! I was born at 7:30 am, weighed 5 lbs. 14 1/2 oz, and 20 in. long, in the year 1969...Boy, was I a long and skinny baby..hahah
It was very melancholy today, I missed him so, so much today..A day like today he would have made such a fuss and big deal over me.. To relax, to enjoy, and to feel the love from him and our girls on my special day..It's hard not to think of what he might have had planned for me..He would say, Hey, wait till you turn 40, you have no idea what's planned for you..Too bad I will never find out...But, I know he's with me..Still, I wish he was really with me, here and in the flesh...Life was always good with him in it..I know life is still good in it's own way, I have our girls and they are healthy, and I thank God for that...My girls made me feel so good today, I felt so loved..They bought a dozen white roses, which they took over for their dad..I was surprised with a piece of jewelry that Otto once spoke of getting for me..I guess I must have mentioned it to them at one time or another..But, in any case Jackie wrote in my birthday card about some unfinished business that dad had and they thought of finishing it for him..I cried, and cried...It broke my heart that they thought of doing this..Something that meant so much..It's a pendant circle in diamonds that represents "INFINITE CIRCLE", the infinite circle of love, it just keeps going...My sister came over with my niece Brittany, my nephew Kristian was here, Debi and her daughter Sophia, Jackie's boyfriend Juan, and my cousin Bryan..They all mean so much to me...I was so happy that they remembered and they took time from their evening to spend time with me...I received phone calls from friends, and some family and some txt messages on my phone...I woke up to one friend singing Happy Birthday on my voice mail..That was too funny..Teresa sweetie, don't lose your day job, hahah, you have guts my friend, I couldn't do that unless I was so drunk that I forgot I couldn't sing..hahahh My emotions started to really take it's toll as of yesterday when I received a beautiful bouquet of flowers with the cutest teddy bear from my friend Michael..He's a wonderful and dear friend..Again, thank you Michael for being my dearest friend...Barb, thanks for the beautiful handmade card, you always amaze me with your talent..It's been a long, emotional day..Wow, I'm 40...Well, really I have completed 39 yrs of living, I'm starting my 40th year..hahahh ..It's really true, think about it...
I know my girls read my blog, thank you girls for being our girls, you know dad is looking over you and being a proud daddy as he always has been...Thank you for making my birthday a good and happy one, I love you Jackie, Megan and Kaitlin...Here's to another year..Lets see how it goes and what it brings...